imma precious'love

i have been wondering..
will life better being alone?
no friends and no one i love.
will it be more happier?
i duns have to care about what others been thinking about me.
no need to worry whether what they've been talking about..
duns have to cry.duns have to think.
doesn't have any emotion..
feelings is such an ache to me.
i can support myself.live by my own.and worried about me only.
no ones doing wrong to me.
its all me.my own problem..
my family dote me..my bf love me.
than what was it i want?
hahs.its really hilarious.
perhaps i duns want any burden..
i feel insecure..
who can i call when i need a listening ear?
who is there?
i duns want to be the first to give in to anyone anymore.
i duns want to be the first to say sorry to anyone anymore.
what for?they duns even appreciate.
what's the point treating them so good, and yet i will be thrown away like rubbish.
i'm scared.i duns want people treating me good.i would try to get away.
i'm scared getting hurt again.the feelings of heart ache was really so real..

baobei's been pampering me more and more.
i can see that.
but i just dunno why i'm feeling afraid.
i'm scared it's just temporary.
i duns want..what i want is, him pampering me wholeheartedly.
i shouldn't doubt him.
i duns want any past experience to affect it.
but the shadow are there.make me wanna get away..
make me stop the happiness i had.
and make me covered myself with a shield.
this is all what feelings been playing..
this is all what life have to go.
another lesson..